Today has been rough so far. It hurts to move, it even hurts to sit. Last night was an intense rehearsal for my upcoming performance. Over the last several weeks, I have literally been taking ibuprofen like it is candy. I can’t even go through the night without waking up in excruciating pain and having to take more pain pills. I have been doing aerobic and weight training between rehearsals trying to kick my body back into dancing shape but for some reason my body is protesting. I use to love the feel of pain because it meant my muscles and body was becoming toned and fit. Now, I just want the pain to go away. It is just not worth it.
At the beginning of the year one of my sisters suggested our family hold our own Biggest Loser contest. Neil and I chose not to participate for various reasons but we decided we would do it on our own. But we would make it about becoming and staying healthy rather than just losing weight. So around January 5 we weighed ourselves and then began making changes to our lifestyle. To take the focus off of weight we decided we would not weigh ourselves again until July 1. So we have been faithfully exercising a minimum of 20 minutes every day, eating more servings of fruits and veggies and drinking more water. Well, at least that is how it started out. Our faithful exercise has faltered some but is not completely non-existent. We both got sick a few weeks ago, so it was difficult to exercise then and then get back into it. In my defense I still dance 4 hours a week so sometimes I take a break, okay? Anyway, after the first few weeks I cheated and wanted to weigh myself because I had been working so hard and I felt like it would be a good reward. I was dead wrong. I had actually gained a few pounds. Right before I threw the scale through the bathroom wall, Neil did his best to reassure me that it was muscle weight. Then I realized we should have measured our bodies instead of just weighing ourselves. In any case this is what has led me to believe that it is not worth it. I hurt and I want it to go away along with a few more pounds.
2 comments:
Steve and I have been doing our own Biggest Loser thing too. Okay. Scratch that. Steve has been. I've been snarfing down brownies and blobbin' out of my fat pants. :) Despite this, I think that chocolate really is the answer for everything.
Its so sad to get older. Your body just doens't like to work anymore! Good luck with your goals and dancing. At least the dancing is fun and not just painful!
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