I don't know what it is but when I have too much to do I become highly dysfunctional. I am feeling extremely overwhelmed with work, with life and just everything. I am an avid list maker but right now I have lists and lists on post-it notes and whatever I can find that I just can't seem to get organized. Everything needs to be done now. So I am feeling very disorganized even though usually my lists are what makes me organized. So because I just don't know where to begin and my mind is going in a million directions, I just can't focus. The less important things seems to keep surfacing. Like checking my email and sending hilarious utube videos to people.
This use to happen all the time in high school when the balance between school, two jobs, and performing on 2 dance companies became too much. I would just break down. I use to cry then and now I just eat chocolate. Most days being busy is ideal and my lists keep me on track. But I think I hit my breaking point today. Instead of tackling the long lists, I would rather blog because that is just one more way to be dysfunctional.
Oh and did I mention that I am performing in a dance concert in April? I figured that since I just wasn't busy enough I would add 4 hours of dancing to my schedule. The problem with this is that I'm not 16 anymore and my body certainly isn't what it was back then. The good thing is that I do enjoy it and it is forcing me to exercise.
3 comments:
I didn't know you were still dancing. Hope things settle down soon. Hang in there. how do I get on your utube list?
I'm sorry life is coming at you all at once, but I'm really glad you're blogging. I've missed reading your thoughts
The only consolation I can offer is that in your state of dysfunction you are more functional than most people on their best day. Things ebb and flow- I'll be praying they'll "ebb" for you long enough to catch your breath!
Love,
Mom
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